Now let the party begin. Let's have cake. Blow up some balloons, hang a banner. My visit was my GYN was wonderful. The fact that he has followed a large part of my care over the past 7 years, eases the irritation of not having a primary care physician. My appointment today was very thorough. We talked at length about my "episodes" and he felt comfortable asking me to not address this with a psychiatrist until after.....Wait for it, my hysterectomy. Yes. We have spoken about this several times in the past, but each of his alternative plans has worked for a while. Now that we are out of options, he feels confidant that with appropriate monitoring after my surgery, we can get the episodes under control with hormone replacement therapy or an antidepressant that works on anxiety. I already take Effexor, but he can toodle around with the dosage and maybe add something so that I don't have to wonder when I will fall apart.
laparoscopically. I have a tiny uterus which means the likelihood that they will encounter problems is very low. There will be an overnight stay, and 2 days complete bed rest at home after. I will also stay home from work for two weeks. When I had my laparoscopic surgery several years ago during my infertility treatments, I was fine in several days. So I am hoping and praying all goes well. My biggest is concern is for my girlz. As I have said a million times, Anna empathises like an old soul and seeing her momma in a hospital will be troubling for her. I may just not let her come. August is starting to worry if "momma" hurts herself, so she may not make it either. .They are only 6 and 4 and if I say momma needs to go get her tummy fixed and have my sister and mother stay with them to keep them busy, I think it will be fine.
I know some people may feel a sense of loss when facing this decision. Not this girl. The whole area is dysfunctional at best, a pain in my ass at its worst. So for me, this will make my whole self feel free from a life of focusing on that special time of the month. Funny, I never felt like I failed by not being able to have children. I equate keeping my innards to keeping a tumor. Really, what's the point of it if it only works to cause aggravation.
I am hoping that the surgery can be schedule for the last week in March, since the next week is my spring break. That would give me 3 long weeks to recover. I just can't believe this dream if finally going to happen. I know we will have to work out what I do for replacement hormones, but my doctor feels confident that due to my age, (41) we can get through it with mild medications if any. He wants me to consider quitting smoking while I do this so that I can exercise. He says many of his new moms, and post op patients find walking and yoga good for actually giving energy. We'll see about that!
So today is a good day. Missi, I want you to make me a cake just like the one above! And I want flowers. And a back rub.
Lee, I hate to say it..It's your turn to get to the doctor!