Tuesday, June 01, 2010

no promises....

I started taking Chantix this week...Nothing yet. But somehow, I am supposed to be ready to quit by Friday.
I could literally burst into tears if I give it too much thought. So I don't. I am just taking them and praying a lot. Please pray for me.

I have done a lot of praying, but by far this is my biggest shame and I would love to get rid of it...

7 comments:

Tina in CT said...

I had no idea what Chantix was so googled it. Good luck this week. I'll be thinking of you and sending good thoughts your way.

You CAN do it!

Anonymous said...

Girlie.... You got this. Quit thinking about it and just worry about my problems. That will help you quit! LOL! Love you. M

Annie said...

Cut it with the shame, girl!

You are a VERY cool person, a loving mama, a wonderful teacher, talented, beautiful, generous-hearted....and so what if you smoke?! That is one thing I don't like about this puritanical culture!

Not to say I like smoking, per se, but that people are SO QUICK to "judge" and try to "shame" someone for an OBVIOUS fault, whereas they hold their head up high just because they UNDOUBTEDLY have faults and sins that are not so obvious. Who is perfect? They are just lucky that their particular flaw isn't public knowledge, or the "flavor of the day" in terms of being publicly labeled "bad".

You need to go to Russia! Everyone smokes there!

I recently heard that they have discovered some people genetically have a much harder time stopping smoking than others. So, all those who look down their nose at you for not being able to stop probably found it MUCH EASIER than you did. Or, like me they never started - and shouldn't even be IN the conversation! They have no more right to act smug than the girl who can sing has to look smug at the one who can't. Or the kindergartener who can read has to sneer at the one who has dyslexia.

I'd rather have you smoke than feel shame, dear one. So stop it right now.

HilaryS said...

Thinking good thoughts for you this week. I know you can do it!

Hilary

Jen Stevens said...

You can totally do this. I'll keep praying for ya.

Iraida and Valeria Sofia said...

Praying you stay strong;)

Tina in CT said...

Hope it's going well for you. I've never gone through this but know that it must be extremely difficult. Hang in there!