Friday, October 29, 2010

Goals..Day 13

Gosh, this one is tough. How does one actually figure out goals...Long term? Short term? Family Goals? Work Goals? Personal Goals?

So here is one wide sweeping goal. I plan to be a happy, healthy, good mother, employed, and working on myself in a variety of ways, with the help of a variety of friends and family..
Generic? Sure.
Oh, and somewhere in there, something amazing and magical will happen.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Day ? What I Believe...

I believe that God is with me. He gets a twisted kick out of my sense of humor..Hey, HE gave it to me..I love God and work everyday to be good FOR him. I want everyone to follow The Word of Jesus Christ, but I will love you if you aren't there yet. But I do want you to give J.C. a chance..

I believe in tolerance. In all aspects, but mostly in reference to homosexuality. My heart tells me to pray about it because I don't think God really loves the idea...But he also doesn't love anything that puts us at odds with The Word. I am happy that our world is slowly becoming more tolerant about this. Being in the DC area, I have had enough education to know its not really a choice...It's not really a huge part of my life, but my sister is. And by golly, I won't have anyone slamming her for any reason..I CAN, but no one else can!

I believe that people with money, Lot's of money, are often the people that should never be trusted with it.

I believe that being a parent should be the FIRST priority in every mother or father's life..I believe you give up your every chance at freedom, relaxation, adult time, and free time alone, when you become a parent. Anything and everything we do should be mirrored against how it will affect our children. We have to give up our secret dreams in order to be a responsible parent.

I believe that pride is disgusting. I know I often post happy happy love love posts here, but in order to be honest and truthful, I do admit to being lazy, messy, a smoker, fat, and dreamy...I am not perfect, nor is my life..If you aren't sharing the ugly in your life, I don't want to see the pretty.

I believe that some time soon, something amazing will happen to our family..Maybe it will not be amazing to you, but,
{Anna's first swim meet is fabulous to me}
{getting a mortgage that will lower my payment by $500.oo is awesome to me}
{a first winter snow is a small miracle to this Florida girl}
{Trick or Treating with the GodFamily}
So see, believing in small wonders can really be amazing...

Pray for  a far away friend who is struggling with many aspects of her life. She is a mom and needs support and love and just isn't getting it..

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Day 11, My Favorite TV Shows

I love a lot of shows, so here's a top ten...

10. Real Housewives of (any of the towns are good)
9.   Cake Boss
8.   Nancy Grace
7.  The Daily Show
6.   Chelsea Lately
5.   The New Adventures of Old Christine
4.   Project Runway
3.   Intervention
2.  Glenn Beck.....(just kidding)   Everybody Loves Raymond
1.  The Amazing Race

Day 10, What I Am Afraid Of...

There are two really big things that I am afraid of..
The first one is losing my parents..Since I am terrified, I won't even write much..

The other thing I am afraid of is being in staying in the emotional, financial, and professional place that I am right now..For very much longer. The last time I felt this way, I walked into my principals office and resigned for that next school year. I didn't have a plan, or an idea of what I would do, nor did I care. I just had to get out..I remember this sense of Dread that would wash over me as I drove into my old school...I could literally feel myself sinking into my car seat debating whether or not I should drive away to never never land...Once I resigned, I felt great!!
I can't do that now, and that makes me feel trapped. Feeling trapped, well, it ain't good..

Monday, October 25, 2010

Day 9 Post A Picture of Your Friends..

I can't just put a pic up and not tell you a bit about the person you see...This is Lee. She and I have been friends since I was in the 7th grade. We both played the oboe. Since it's not a "marching instrument, we both did other things. She was a majorette, and I was a cheerleader. She is like a sister to me. Really. We have been through thick and thin together and I love her more now than I did when we went partying together..All once we reached 21 of course!!
Lee is old school. What I mean is, and this might sound crazy, but she is the wife of the 50's...She cooks everynight for her hubby. AND makes him a delicious lunch. The girl puts Jet's (her hubby) food together as if she is making it for a king. Several courses. And of course a desert. AND my girl irons his clothes. OLD SCHOOL..Maybe that's why they have been married for a thousand years. They struggled when they first had kids and thinking back on that time makes me laugh..They used to break up and he would move into their camper..And we would HATE him..and then he would do something amazing for the kids and we would fall in love with him again..And after a year or so of that, they have been just fine..They have tow amazing preteenagers and are living a great life..I am even close to Lee's siblings. Well, one of them..The other one turned into a dirtbag when Lee's mom passed away. Ahhh, Helen. Lee is doing just fine, and you would be proud of the way she is raising her children. They are right on track with their grades and their extra activities..We miss you Miss Helen.

My local BFF is Missi. She is going through a rough time...Since she has her own blog, I will send you over there to check out what is going on in her life..Pray for this girl..Life is throwing her some heavy stones, and needs us all to step up and love on her!!!!

I love you girlz..You have been such great sisters.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Day Whatever, A Place I Have Visited...

You have seen a million photos of my time in Russia. But before Russia, I would travel to visit my dad overseas. My favorite trip was the one to Malaysia and Hong Kong. The first photo is from a market in Kuala Lampur. It was amazing there.

Here my dad and I  are on our way to Stanleys Market..It is a pretty famous place on the top of a mountain in the center of Hong Kong..(Funny, because I had a job interview while in there..It was late in the summer and I could have worked there, but would have had to take a "local hire" contract, which was not doable..But even in 93, I was trying to get myself overseas..

I have posted a million beach pix. BUT this one is at my dad's beach in Kuan Tan Malaysia. There was literally nothing around but the South China Sea and monkeys. While my dad worked, I sat by the sea and just enjoyed life.(Don't bring up how skinny I am here..)

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Baryshnikov in the movie, White Night(1985)

Favorite Movies...The Color Purple - Best Scene

I saw the Color Purple when I was a teenager. And I was moved, even then, by the powerful message for women in the dinner scene. I hadn't really been "man-handled" nor had I truly  lost my power to any man, but I got it. I was 15. I knew that at some point, something, maybe a man, a job, a relationship, would hold me like a prisoner. I could see that friendships could save me. I could see that standing up to those jailhouse keepers and putting a metaphorical knife to their throat would be next to impossible to do, but doable once you reach that level of inner strength that Miss Celie had at the end of the movie...And what gave her that strength? (her children) 

There have been lots of other movies that touched me in one way or another over the years..As a child of the eighties, 16 Candles was a biggie, and FlashDance, White Nights, and Pretty in Pink bring some strong memories.(As a kid I wanted to be a dancer!!)
As an adult, I can honestly say, I have only seen a handful of movies. In the 7 years that I have been a parent, I have only seen 2 movies. 2~ And they were both of the Sex and the City Movies..Those are guilty pleasures movies and not the kind that would make top ten lists.

I did and still love Beaches and Steele Magnolias as all time best tear jerker movies..I never watched horror flicks but did watch The Blair Witch Project since it was filmed around here. I got sucked into the hype..Dumb..

My other top favorites are Spike Lee movies..Crooklyn and Do The Right Thing stand out as movies I could watch over and over.
Other guilty pleasure movies are the Fridays movies...Again, can't recommend them, I just giggle a whole lot when I watch them.

Friday, October 22, 2010

Day 6 A Photo That Makes Me Happy

AugustRose wasn't even two and she looked 14. And look at the Hughes Babies...And my Anni..Good times at Hill Wood Mansion's Russian Dacha Exhibit.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

My Sister

Of all the relationships I have, this one is probably the most complex. My sister and I are very different. Very. I am Christian, she is Buddhist. I am a junk food eater, she is vegetarian. I am straight, she is gay. I am pretty much a non-dater, she is in a committed relationship. I am always with my parents, she isn't. I have an independent streak that she doesn't have. I am forever early, she is always late. I don't give a shit what people think of my girlz, and she is worried if they run out of the house looking like gypsies. I have a million close girlfriends, and she is sort of a loner..
I don't mean to paint her in a negative light. Because I adore her. But  honestly, since she came out a thousand years ago, we just don't do much together anymore. I moved to DC to be near her. And we have just drifted. When we are together for more than a couple of days, one of two things happens. She gets upset because my girlz are wild and loud, and like I said before, gypsy-fied..Or, we have a silly blast, like when we are at my dad's beach house.
We don't really argue. But she gets frustrated with me and my dad. Again, the loud factor. I yell at my dad all the time about letting my girlz go Buck Wild at his house but it really bothers my sister..
My sister is an outrageously wonderful Auntie. She was the ONLY person in my life who didn't want me to go to Russia. She knew that it would be most hard for her to get over to see us..My girlz love their Aunti so much. She is caring and patient and enjoys the activities she does with my girlz.
My sister and I are working on our relationship. The problem is, I am boring. All I ever do is school stuff, kidz stuff, and Church stuff. That leaves little time for doing something fun, just the two of us..
She is struggling right now, and I am hoping that we find time to spend time together to chat about it..
I love my sister so much. She is the one person in the world that I want to get closer to!
Here's to you LDG, my cool ass sister!

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Day 4.. My Parents

This is another easy one for me!
I grew up very  normally. Cept for the fact that we were farm people. Some people call that "country".
My parents were great. My mom was a super tyrant at times. But Thank God for that. It got my crazy out of control ass under control..She was a teacher, then principal at my school so she was always around me and my sister. She was very strict on us. Grades, behavior, our chores, all that was NO JOKE in the Green house! But my mom was very lovey too. She rode my butt like a mule, but I always knew she loved me..She was always very proud of me. I could feel it.

I was the son my dad never had. He used to take me everywhere with him. I used to go to U of F Gator games with him. (Which is how I learned to drive on the Florida Turnpike at 13) I went to work with him and played on the phones and with the typewriters..Hello, it was before computers!! We went on business trips, (which is where I drove my first Lincoln Continental across Canada at 14). I was always pretty tight with him. My dad was much more tender hearted than most dads. He went to all of our events. Never missing a thing. He has and still calls me TIGER..I can count on One hand the times I have heard him say my real name. Seriously. His coworkers, friends, and family all know me as Tiger.. My dad and I are still very close. He loves my girlz dearly, and leaves in the wee early hours of the day, since it's too hard for him to see his little ones cry when he goes back to Florida. I have always traveled to visit my dad when he lived overseas. At 42, I still don't go more than a couple of months without seeing my dad.

My parents divorced when I was 16 and it was painful and awful just like everyone else's. But the key to it was my dad never left my mom stranded. They always worked as a team, and made sure my sister and I felt like a family. They have never remarried and still spend all of the holidays and birthdays together with my sister and I, and of course my girlz.

The relationship I have with my parents was pretty much explained when I adopted Anni and Auggie..
Mom went on Trip 1 for Anna's adoption. Dad went on Trip 2.
(sister met us in Moscow)
Dad went on Trip 1 for Auggie. Mom went on Trip 2.
(sister met us in Moscow)
How many parents would drop everything, run around for last minute visa documents, then spend thousands of dollars for their child? Most wouldn't or couldn't. Mine found a way to do it. Twice.

I can't complain. My parents are rock stars.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Day 3-Your first love

My first love was this guy...He's the one without sunglasses...Such a dork. Evan Tullos.
We met when I was in 7th grade. I chased this guy until the night before he got married. He was the one guy who really changed me..He humbled me. You see, he never really loved me. I was the girl he turned to to make other people mad. We did have fun together, but he broke my heart on a weekly basis. I can remember one boy telling me, "Jules, he will never love you the way you love him."  This guy was a great friend, and I think he secretly had a crush on me..Thanks Paul, you did make me feel special on many many occasions.
Evan and I went through a lot together. Most of it tinged with my sadness of knowing he would never truly commit to me..We partied all the way through high school, and even college. But somewhere around that time he got his girlfriend preggers and they got married..And for me, that was it. I did and still do believe in love and marriage, so I let it go..I can still remember Evan's little sister coming to my house to get ready for his wedding..I was sad and sick all at the same time..At one point, Evan was my favorite person in the world. What I knew and still know is that Evan may be fabulous now, but at our core, he and I are too familiar with each other for him to bullshit me. I know him. The real him. The funny dorky, adorable, silly him..And he knows those same parts of me..
The two of us have emailed and phone chatted over the years but we have not been in the same room for almost 18 years. I feel weird about seeing him, considering I am about 40 pounds heavier than I should be at my age..And also, I don't drink anymore and feel like I could be a drag on the party!!
It's weird because I really don't care about my weight, except when I consider being around ET. Huh? Wonder what that means..

Anyway, Here's to Evan, the guy who I used to love. A wonderfully funny friend.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Day 2-Meaning behind your blog name

Today's entry is pretty easy..Why is my blog called what it is...
Solnichka is Russian for Sun..And this fits my girlz perfectly..Sunny..Happy...Bright...Warm and Lovely!!
The first song I sung to Anna was, "You Are My Sunshine..."
Also, I started really blogging while in Florida many years ago, and found that my girlz were such beach babies and it seemed to fit..

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Missi Sent Me A Blog Challenge...

I am going to do this one..Seems pretty easy. I jsut have to remember to blog everyday!!
Prayer Requests:

S, my high school cheer leading buddy is struggling with her co teacher. Not really meeting each other's needs and S ends up feeling like she is not doing a great job teaching...WHICH I KNOW SHE IS!!
And our dear E...This is not good news. On the night that my friend asked me to pray for her, E had a grand Mal seizure. And this is very concerning to her doctors. No diagnoses has been made yet, and this just makes it even more confusing!
T is my small group friend..She just found out her mom has a cancerous tumor that can't be operated on..The doctors are starting chemo ASAP..T is so upset and traumatized by this, that she had to go on "nerve pills" to help calm her down. I so relate to being worried about a family member~~


Day 1-Introduce, recent picture, 15 interesting facts
*can't seem to load a pic..but my Disney Pics are the most recent, so check those out!
I am Julianne Green, an adoptive mother of two little girlz. 15 interesting facts that I have not shared before...Hmmm,
I play the oboe
I have colored my hair pretty much every color that is sold
I cannot live without my glue gun
My mother washes my girlz' clothes
I don't think we should realize it when other people have lots of money
I don't think about anything as much as I think about my daughters
I am grateful every single day
I can actually feel other people's happiness and feed off of it
I could give up cakes and baked goods forever, IF you said chips and dip were completely healthy
I don't date, and don't think I ever will again
I pretend that I win the lottery, and make lists of what I would do with the money
I am like a man in that I will listen to problems, and then want to go fix them myself
I am messy
I am a Christian in a constant state of  "needing to do better"
When a friend or family member needs me, I will be there and move hell and earth for them..

These are the topics for the next 30 days!
Day 2-Meaning behind your blog name

Day 3-Your first love

Day 4-Your parents

Day 5-Your siblings

Day 6-A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 7-Favorite movies

Day 8-A place you've traveled to

Day 9-A picture of your friends

Day 10-Something you're afraid of

Day 11-Favorite tv shows

Day 12-What you believe

Day 13-Goals

Day 14-A picture you love

Day 15-Bible verse

Day 16-Dream house

Day 17-Something you're looking forward to

Day 18-Something you regret

Day 19-Something you miss

Day 20-Nicknames

Day 21-Picture of yourself

Day 22-Favorite city

Day 23-Favorite vacation

Day 24-Something you've learned

Day 25-Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs

Day 26-Picture of your family

Day 27-Pets

Day 28-Something that stresses you out

Day 29-3 Wishes

Day 30-a picture

Friday, October 15, 2010

Kate Got Me Motivated...

To throw a bunch of randoms together and share a little about what's been going on over the last few weeks. And since I cleaned my memory cards from both cameras, I have some pictures to share!!

We had a wonderful visit from Anna. Anna was one of the wonderful ladies who I worked with in Khabarovsk during my lil Anna's adoption. We have kept in touch over the years, and she visits the states every so often. It feels good to chat with her, but her news about the stall in international adoptions is heartbreaking. Families waiting, families wanting to go to court, and most sad, the many children waiting..Just waiting to find forever families.

We visited with Anna before I knew I wouldn't be going to Russia. She was thrilled to possibly help me adjust..Ugg. This is when I want to throw a glass against a wall, because I had so many little ideas and offers to help...This is also when I want to drop an EFF bomb. It just irritates me that someone or some board would choose a teacher with a few years teaching, because they are cheaper. That it would really come down to money. It doesn't matter the experience, drive, determination, or dedication of the teacher with two children. What matters is that teacher is too expensive..Ok ok, no more negative nelly. Just not up for it tonight..
My dad was here and he and the girlz, and me, sort of, did some gardening. It was very surprising how strong Anna is getting. AugustRose was busy throughout the day doing anything but working. She picked up lots of rocks, and moved them around the yard. Then moved them back. And then moved them again...

We've been to the doctor's this week.Obviously the girlz had to get down to their undeeees. Of course we had to cover our "boobies" in order to get the shot..The reason for the photo was to distract the girlz about the shots they were about to get. I always tell them when they are getting shots. I tell them the truth that it will hurt for a bit, but I will hold them and love on them and when it's over, we will get a treat and take a nap together. And this is exactly what we did! Poor August had 6 shots. We had to get the final MMR, DTap, and Varicella.Then she had to get her first HEP A and a flu shot. The other shot was one that I was supposed to get 6 months after her last appointment, but didn't do it.. Anna had to get her first HEP A and a flu shot. It was 

And here is where our little family has spent the past month and a half..At the pool. Anna is getting really good at swimming, and will be in her first meet in November. August and I watch her and get to spend some time together reading stories all the while getting dizzying head rushes from the chlorine filled air at the aquatic center..It's the best exercise and although Anni is really clumsy on land, in the water she is pretty graceful. August has no desire to do it. She says she will do it next year...Hmmm. I don't believe her.
And this is why I have to get a new job. What you can't tell is that it takes me over 10 minutes to get to that little green sign at the top of the picture. Every doggone day. Lost hours of my life looking at the back of cars filled with drivers who seem hostile and irritated to be on the road...

I have decided that each time I post I want to add a prayer request section..If you want me to add a prayer for you, please just add it in the comments..These requests are coming from my Facebook page.

For my dear friend A, she would like prayer for her family's finances. It's a rough time out there, she is an adoptive mom with a house full of children, and a heart of gold...
For a childhood friend N. Like me, she has a truck driver's mouth..We both need to honor God with our words..
For my Church friend S, she is looking for Mr. Right. Hello, I know that feeling.. I know S pretty well, and her Mr. Right's gotta be a real stand up kind of guy with a heart and soul for the Lord!
For Our Sweet E This is a child who was thought to have a tragic illness...Although she does not have the disease that the doctors thought she had, a final diagnosis has not been found, and she is struggling. This is an 8 year girl...Let's all raise this baby up in prayer.
For My 2 BFF's One here in VA and one in FLA...I ask that God gives each of them peace. One in her struggle with her sibling after the death of her mother drove a wedge between them...The other is going through a painful, awful, divorce..I wish I could walk in each of your shoes when it gets too hurtful. I love you both as though you were my sisters, and I can't stand to see you hurting.

Sunday, October 03, 2010

Today I told Anna and AugustRose that we wouldn't be going to Russia next year. Anna quickly yelled, "Yeahhh!!!" Then she covered her mouth as if she wanted to take it back. She looked at me, and with those amazing black eyes, let me know that she was not happy, but she has been doing so many fun things that she would miss them..I told her we may try to go for the summer, and I could get a teaching job for just that time..AugustRose then said she wasn't going. She wanted to go to Dadushka's beach house. I let her know that we could invite Dadu to Russia if we went. She was ok with that..
I am working on a lot of possible leads for summer jobs. I wish someone would just sprinkle some FAIRY dust over me, and Poof! All the details would be worked out. Just like it is when you have a good adoption agency, and the work out all the details of your "court trip" and you get to spend that month in Russia enjoying your sweet babies...

Just to update you, I am still very disappointed at my job. Still overwhelmed with my finances...But I give thanks to God for my little girlz. They can be terrors sometimes, they can be spoiled, they make epic messes, and they drive me nuts sometimes, but they are just what I wanted when I begged the Big Guy for children, so I'll take it.
Anna is continuing to go to swim team 4 nights per week, and she starts back to ballet tomorrow. AugustRose is starting ballet and tap..Homework is much more intense in 2nd grade, so needless to say, I don't have much time to feel sorry for myself.. Thank goodness my dad is her for a couple of weeks. Just having another adult in the house gives me a break. PLUS he is a great cook! and the girlz love him soooo!