I am sick as a dog. My body aches and I'm in tears.
My house is gross. Crap/junk/toys/shit everyone..My girlz are terrible lately. Fighting, arguing, crying, being defiant. And Anna is the fairing the worst. It's so bad, that I honestly think I need to go to a parenting class or counselor. She told her teacher that I loved AugustRose more than I love her..And you guys gotta know how hard this hurts. Especially considering that we had 3.5 years together to really establish a deeep love..She is lazy and won't help clean her messes. And it is making me horribly depressed. My mom doesn't even want to come here anymore because it seems that all the toys and stuff here makes the girlz argue and fuss. So she takes them to her house..
I am not being a good parent. I am so tired lately. My house is really bothersome. And schlepping my laundry down 2 flights of stairs means I don't do it the way I should. SO, I am always behind..
I need some encouragement friends. I am feeling very down. I am feeling like a big failure and the worst part, the part I am most ashamed of, is I want a little break..I wish I could just sleep all day and let my mom or Missi take my kids for a few days..Please say some of you have felt this way...